My only request by Yumi_Fan

A Dark Night of Love

A Dark Night of Love

I smiled silently as the wind brushed me ever so gently, the disconnected souls flew around myself, though keeping distance away.

They thought I was their master.

And I must say, I think they predict right, for they do not see.

They feel.

And they feel the same energy coming from me, as it came from her, so natural, they think of me as they're master.

And I am they're master, for I have the same soul as my incarnate.

Kikyou...

Kikyou this, Kikyou that, it was all the same. Inuyasha would say I was not Kikyou, I wasn't good enough, though deeply, I know he thinks of me as a second chance. He didn't know just how much he hurt me, until I thought of myself.

There are many who like Hojo, and I got him. Before Inuyasha I would brag and brag that the school's cute guy was mine, mine to keep, would I think of the people who truly needed him? No...

Just yesterday he asked for my love.

I didn't take it.

Why?

Because I'm the second chance, well, to him anyways. To him, I was the second chance he thought the Gods have handed to him.

Well, I'm not.

I want to be the first chance.

A very selfish wish, but a true want of mine.

The only want.

Maybe that was why I chased after Inuyasha after the discovery of Kikyou more desperately, because, Inuyasha can fulfill my wish, I knew that the day I saw him, but Kikyou gave me a challenge.

A challenge.

The way she stood, the way her eyes look in you're soul, you know she was perfect.

More perfect then me.

And her eyes challenged me to a duel, a duel for Inuyasha's heart.

I foolishly took it.

I had pride, even though you can't truly see it, I do not give up.

It will hurt my pride, and I am over that.

I will not let her have a open road to my heart. I will not have her take advantage of me by a mere duel.

I think I surprised her that day, when I cried seeing Inuyasha so vulnerable.

She was proud of me.

Because I show strength.

She kept that challenge flowing, every once in awhile it will surface.

She always wins.

She was always proud of me.

The challenge is here tonight, again.

The souls are a sign.

So I shall go and watch as they kiss.

But now, my heart doesn't hurt anymore.

Maybe because, I know if I go for Inuyasha, my dream of becoming somebody's will be ruined.

I only have on wish, and that wish shall not be denied.

To be the best.

I am walking toward them, it is not Inuyasha that make me want to go see anymore, it is because of my pride, because of the challenge.

One day I shall find the one, and I can finally be the first, but now, I shall follow the challenge, I shall watch.

They are talking, all I have to do is pry open the leafy bush, and I can see the challenge, but before I do that, I silently whisper...

"I will be the best."

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If only you love me, you will be the first...

Sesshoumaru thought as he heard the tiny whisper, though it sounded loud.

If only you let me in...