Bittersweet by Konton

Bittersweet

So, it finally happened. He chose her. I new he would. I was prepared; no I was waiting for it. So, if I knew, why does it hurt so damn bad? Why? No matter, I'll just leave. I'll finish finding the shards myself. I don't need his help, or anyone's help. I need no one. I grabbed my bow and arrows, and slowly, calmly walked away from Inuyasha and the dead bitch. I knew I'd miss Sango, and Miroku, and my kit, but this is my only choice. If I didn't leave, she would attempt to take my soul. I can't allow that, so here I am, on my own. Alone for all eternity.

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I can smell her. I can smell her pain. How? How is it that I can tell what this human feels just by her sent? I don't understand. What is it that draws me to her? Why do I have the sudden urge to comfort her? I don't understand. I'm just standing here... watching.... waiting. For what? Even I, the great Demon Lord of the West, do not know. Her sent is intriguing. She smells of roses, and night. Such a lovely sent. Why am I here? Why is she sad? Wait, I can smell clay and death. So that is why. That is what causes her pain. He has chosen.

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I can sense him there. I can feel his eyes on me. All I want to do is to be alone, where I can suffer in peace. But, I guess that is yet another thing I can never have.

"Come out Sesshomaru, I know you're there. Stop hiding," I'm tired of his eyes on me. I feel him come closer, but make no move to turn to him. I want to end it. I want to end it all. Maybe he can help me. Maybe... maybe it will end tonight.

"Miko, you shall refer to this Sesshomaru by his proper title. I am the Lord of the Western Lands, and will be respected as thus," I hear him say coldly. I turn to him, feeling nothing. I'm hollow. All I feel is the pain and the sorrow.

"I just want it to end. I have no purpose. Now that Kikyo is here, my only purpose in life has been taken away. After all I am just a copy. What is the point of a replica, if the real thing is still around?" I say to him. He looks startled. It appears that the cold lord does have emotions. Interesting.

"What do you mean?" What does he mean 'what do I mean'?

"I mean exactly what I say. I no longer wish to live a life with no meaning. Kill me, please. I want to be dead!" Damn, I'm crying.

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To say that I'm startled would be an understatement. Kill her? 'A life with no meaning'? She's wrong. She has meaning. I can't believe that I didn't realize it sooner. I could no more kill her than I could move a star.

"No."

"'No'? Why?!? WHY WILL YOU NOT GRANT ME THE ONLY THING I'VE EVER ASKED FOR?!? PLEASE!" I... can't... I won't.

"I... can't kill you..." It is best she know that her life has meaning.

"Why? It isn't that hard. All you need do is slit my neck, and it's over." What is she saying?

"It is not as easy as that, Kagome. I cannot allow myself to harm you." She needs to know...

"Why!? Why won't you let yourself kill me? Do you enjoy watching me suffer? ANSWER ME!" I can see her tears flowing faster now. Why must she suffer?

"Don't cry. Please don't cry. I never want to see you hurt. I do wish to end your suffering, yet I cannot kill you. I am physically unable."

"Wh- What? Why?" she says. I can see her confusion in her eyes.

"Would you be able to harm the one you love?" WHAT DID I JUST SAY? Damn it! She wasn't supposed to know that!

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Love? Love?!?

"What do you mean?" He can't possibly mean.

"I love you, Kagome. I only just realized. That is why I cannot allow myself to kill you." He's got tears in his eyes. I made him cry.

"You- you... l-" He's kissing me! Sesshomaru is KISSING me!!!! Damn his lips are soft.

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Why isn't she pulling away? Why isn't she disgusted? It doesn't matter. Even if she doesn't love me... Even if she will never love me, at least I will have gotten a single kiss from her. Yes. One kiss...

I pull away, and turn to walk away. I know she could never love me. She will always see me as the evil demon who tried to kill her. I can't blame her. No, I can't blame her. After all that I have done to her... she deserves better. I'll leave her alone now, so that she can be forever rid of my presence.

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"Wait!" I hear myself call. Wait for what? I don't know. I don't want to be alone anymore. What... what is this feeling? Could I... could I possibly be...? He stopped, good. I walk towards him while trying to think of what to say. I walk in front of him.

"I... love you too." He's smiling!!! Damn, does he look good.

"You do?" I do?

"Yes, without question." Well, I guess I do. What now? I know. I lean up to capture his lips. I smile when I feel him react. I wrap my arms around his neck, and start to concentrate. We glow slightly pink, but it fades quickly. Without breaking the kiss, he wraps his arms around me, and I hear him in my mind... ~Thank you, my love. My Kagome.~

~END~

Cute little one-shot that will most likely stay a one-shot. Hope you liked.