I like pleasure spike with pain, and music is my aeroplane.
--'Aeroplane' Red Hot Chili Peppers
To really tell you about us, I decided to start off simply, explaining who we were, who we became, and who we are now.
It sounds simple, right? But it's complicated, I'm not even sure if I have the whole story, and I was a part of it!
But anyways, who we were: We used to be these five losers who knew way too much about music and the likes, and spent too much time together, and too much time in a garage making 'music.'
And, you know, it was crazy, our original band name was Crescent Moon, not caring that it was probably one of the lamest names to ever exist in the history of rock n' roll, because we never figured that we would make it.
Sure, we hoped, we dreamed, just like every other garage band does, but we never thought it would happen. We didn't even have aspirations to become famous; it was just something we loved, a hobby really.
Maybe you've heard of us, it's okay if you haven't, but after we were 'discovered', the name Crescent Moon was dropped, and now most people know us better as Jewel of Four Souls, but most people just called us Four Souls, until the Jewel of was more or less dropped completely.
But like I said, fame? Farthest things from our minds, which was cool, because everyone, even our parents, and especially the people who suck up to us now, said that we would never amount to anything, because, if I'm being honest, we weren't exactly the 'good' kids.
We weren't the stereotypical rebels either; we didn't sneak out to clubs, and do drugs or any shit like that. Because even when we rebelled; we had to do it in a different way from everyone else. In fact, when I was sixteen, a couple of months before we were 'discovered', I heard my parents talking, and my mom saying, 'Why can't Kagome be like other teenagers and go and shoot up heroine? She worries me....' Which cracked the guys up when I told them.
Because our way of rebelling was to annoy the crap out of our neighbors by playing loud ass rock music in our garages, and then at night, heading out to one of our roofs' and blast a stereo, and sing along, and occasionally, when we were bored, push someone off the roof.
But all that changed when we were 'discovered', and all the fun and games stopped, which was a real bummer, believe me.
We became, like I said, the band known as Four Souls, and we were no longer us, no, we were 'OhMyGodit'sSesshomaruKagomeInuyashaMirokuandShippo!' Shippo was forever lost, and it annoyed the crap out of him, but oh well, I was forever behind Sesshomaru, and he never let me forget it.
He was always saying that it was because he was an awesome guitar player, but I would always respond by saying that if he wasn't so handsome, no girl would care about how he played...but that always served to inflate his ego for some odd reason....
Inuyasha played back up guitar, and he hated it, but loved it at the same time. Hated it, hated being second fiddle to Sesshomaru, his older brother, but loved the pressure not being on him. Loved being able to make mistakes and not have so many people notice, the way they would if Sesshomaru would make a mistake.
Miroku was our drummer, and a slamming one at that, and was quite a pervert, when it came down to it. Still is, now that I think of it.... But despite groping me constantly, he was this guy that you could count on, always the Designated Driver, and if he was at home, and you called him flat out drunk, he would immediately come get you (I would know.). He was, and is, great that way.
Shippo was our bass player, and a really shy person, so that suited him. It kept him in the background, out of sight, out of mind, which was perfect for him, though later in our career he did become a bit more introverted.
And me... I was... me. I was Kagome. The glue that kept us all together if you want the truth, though as our career went on, and we got more famous, it was like we were all doused in water, and my hold loosened on them, much to my dismay. Though, if you want to get technical about it, I was the lead singer, and Sesshomaru and I wrote most of our songs. We were kind of like the Lennon/McCartney of our day, though one of us was a girl, and we were, honestly, considerably less talented.
So, we became famous when we got a gig, if you could call it that. Our friend Sango was having her sixteenth birthday party, and she asked us to play, as a favor to her, and she neglected to mention that her aunt, who was an agent at a record company, was going to be there. Kaede, her aunt, and later our manager, came in as we were playing the very first of our original compositions, called 'Not Tonight', which I wrote the lyrics for, and Sesshomaru wrote the tune.
Kaede was really impressed for God only knows what reason, and then like magic, it was, poof! And we were talking to our parents, getting things signed, well of course, it was more drawn out than that, but that's the gist of it.
And as for who we are now...it's a good question. We aren't the five dipshits who lived in suburbs anymore, and honestly, that's a good thing. But we also aren't SesshomaruKagomeInuyashaMirokuandShippo anymore, so I don't know who we are anymore, not really. I guess I'm kind of hoping that this autobiography gives me an answer.
If you were a Four Souls fan before you read this book, than you probably have an idea of why we broke up, but if you picked up this book because of all of its obscure rock n' roll references, and the crazy stories it's told, I'll give you the bare basics here and now:
The reason we broke up is not all my fault, like some people would like you to believe, (Ahem, Sesshomaru.) But rather a cumulative effort on all of our parts. They contributed by falling into the most horrible rock cliché that has ever been created. They fell into woman, drinking, and drugs and it didn't bother them.
I contributed to the breakup by not being able to take it. They called me a prude when I announced that I was leaving, and for what reason, but I didn't care. They couldn't seriously expect me to sit around and watch them kill themselves. If I couldn't stop them, I wasn't going to watch them, so I got the hell outta Dodge.
And really, Sesshomaru is the only one who won't talk to me anymore.
Inuyasha forgave me about a year ago, and apologized to me too, and we talk, and hang out, and it's pretty much back to normal between us, and that is like the biggest relief in the world.
Shippo was the first to start talking to me again, and the quickest to do so, he only held out about a month, and once again he became like a brother to me.
Miroku came to be about six months after Shippo did, and he actually thanked me. I fell out of my chair when he said that, but it had turned out that about a month after I'd quit, he realized that what he was doing was even crazier than John Lennon marrying Yoko Ono, and checked himself into rehab. We talk pretty much every day.
And Sesshomaru, well, I think he hates me.
So I guess I wasn't completely honest earlier. I know who I am with each of them, but I have absolutely no idea who we are together, as an entity, or if we are even still one.
So, if you are reading this book because you agree with Sesshomaru about me being colossal bitch that broke up the band, or you are a fan who wants to know the truth, it doesn't matter to me. You are going to get the truth. And hopefully, with any luck, so will I....
I hope you enjoy reading this autobiography, I enjoyed writing this. The story that follows will be coupled with song lyrics and excerpts from my journals at the time. Enjoy!
[u]Kagome Higurashi[/u]